Goodbye Holiday

Au revoir vacances. I had a wonderful holiday season and loved spending extra time with my darling, piggies and friends. It's just very intense to have Christmas, New Year's Eve, New Years and my birthday all smashed in together. I understand life must go on but I missed the holiday. I missed having a normal structure to my days with the existence of another person. The spring semester begins on Monday, and I'm not relieved. I didn't get all the things accomplished that I wanted to over my break, but hope to be expected. I will try to be more productive when I have less free time and less social obligations on my hands. Life without school for over a month? Oh yeah. I've managed to completely disturb my sleeping pattern. Instead going to bed at 12 am, I decided to hit the hay sometime after 3 am. Pretty bad huh? Gotta make it right asap when I back to New York. Talking about New York, I feel the stress and worries are all over my head. Not quite a good start for 2010, but keep my finger cross and started to have faith and believe in "Life is good" Soon, in a day. it will back to a normal work schedule for me. No more holidays for a long time. Well, except for Valentine's Day, which for me? I don't know what's the plan yet, hopefully can spend the special day with the special one. Finally I hope everyone else's holidays went well and that no one's broken their New Year's resolution already. What is mine? Don't have one yer ;)

Categories: Just My Thoughts, Life, Winter

Job Hunting

This is how I used to think. "I love my job, I love my job, but hold on, do I really love it? or maybe I am officially hate my job, but uncertain how much longer I have to put up with my truly irritating job?" Those time is over. I'm no longer question myself, because I am "done" with it. I emm.. sort of glad actually, like a bird release from his cage. Not the right timing, isn't it? The economy out there, mess up. Looking for a job sucks. So does the uprooted feeling of not knowing where you're going, what's going to happen or when they'll happen. I've been applying for jobs since I was employed. But whatever responses I've got, many of them turn me down, due to no position being open or my school schedule won't fit their company. Sucks, isn't it? I've been mentally prepared myself for months to find a new apartment, quit my job and get a life started out on my own. I did it, well.. sort of. Moved to a new apartment ( I love it). But the rest of it, it's been 4 months, I was just sat there, ready and waited for miracle to happened. I felt like I was moving backwards on everything. That was passed. I should be doing all the things I could to get me a job, and starting to invest some time and effort into my job hunting. It ain't easy, sending off job applications is like being stuck in the golden triangle, hoping someone will notice and get me out of there.

Categories: Just My Thoughts, Life

Time Flies

Time flies. I'm glad I finally have the gut to move my lazy ass to updated my blog. It's been a while I left my blog behind. My bad. But yeah. So I just have to say that I am so glad for the blogging world and for living in New York. I never thought that I would say that, but living here has not given me the great blessing of keeping in touch with a lot of really awesome high school friends. I am sad to say that I didn't go to reunion because I am sure it would been fun, but mostly I didn't pay for the expensive tickets. I just get on the blog and update it to see my awesome friends still love and care about me! Thank you to all those friends that made High School good and continue to make my life good. You are awesome! Life isn't bad at all. Just wish I am a child without dad. Acknowledging his existent is a hell of pain, and for God's sake. I wish i got to choose my own family members.

Categories: Just My Thoughts, Personal

Homesick

For a while now I've been wondering if this misery I've been feeling 24/7 for the past few days was normal homesickness that most other people feel, or was it just me?

I'm far away from home. Just like everyone else here, I try to keep myself busy (I tried), but everytime when I'm alone, or just viewing the new photos uploaded by my friends and family back home are the worst.

I think I've feeling down more these past few days than I have in the last five years. I miss my family a lot too. Every time my mum and I talk either online or on the phone, I always ignore my own feelings and hell yeah, I am so good at it. But afterwards, wishing to be back at home with her again. And when I recall my good times in high school with my girls, I'm feeling blue.

Life sucks, huh? I count down the days to return home, but there is something that keep holding me back and it's so darn far away. The feeling stinks. I really hope to be able to get over it soon.

Categories: Personal